My Hero

Everyone loves a hero. Someone who can be depended on. Someone you can call and talk to. Someone who makes you feel safe or happy. The person who does the right thing for the good of everyone, even if it's much more difficult than doing the wrong thing. Someone you can be vulnerable around. Someone who doesn't need money or popularity to feel good about doing what's right. Someone who can set the bar for the rest of us. The person you want to be like when you grow up.

There is a great sadness in my heart. There is a divide that has been driven in between people I love, and at their own hand. Now we all know that no one is perfect but it's very easy to get our hopes up. Here's the -uh, problem. Because no one is perfect, that means we're all imperfect. And an imperfect hero will let you down. It hurts to feel as though a major cornerstone in your life has been removed from your home. Or rather, I feel a part of my body has been removed.

Now, that doesn't mean that we should all fall into a pit of despair or give up hope. For me, coming out of a bad situation, it means to keep your eyes open. It means that instead of depending on the imperfect, try to depend on the perfect. So my focus will be on God. So today, this is my prayer:

lord i love you,
thank you for your love,
thank you for your son,
bless your kingdom and those in it on earth and in heaven,
mold me everyday to be more like you,
use me and guide me to your purpose,
create in me a light so that all who see me will see you,
give me strength and courage,
give me wisdom and insight,
help me be forgiving and loving to others
call me by name so that i can follow you as a man, a father, and as a husband,
ease the hurt i feel and replace it with healing,
my heart is yours and beats because of you
make your path for me clear
i ask these things in your name
amen